For days I had the feeling that I didn’t want to enter 2014 with the burden of my karma. I was done with it. Tired of transformation after transformation and going through all my pain. All the old stuff, everything that was holding me back from expressing who I truly AM, could be left in 2013 was my opinion. All I wanted was to bring Me into expression the coming year.
People told me it was just a dream. Not possible. How could I say goodbye to my karma? That is only possible when enlightened. It was wishful thinking in their eyes. Beautiful idea, but not real.
And they were right! That is what I discovered after meeting my Future Self. It was actually my Future Self who told me karma was finished and done.
When living my Future Self everything is possible. I just have to wish for it. In my Future Self I create Me the I want me to be. In every situation I put my Future Self in front. I create the situation just the way I would like it to be. And then I let it unfold. In faith and trust. Knowing that in the end it will be like my Future Self had created it.
It was so simple. I had to laugh about it. So simple. And it took me so long to understand.
I had been reading books and books about how my thoughts create my world. It felt true to me. So it tried to be aware of my thoughts. I knew the way it worked from the books. Though I could never really feel it. So it was just a little trick I was applying. But I never really did understand.
Now I can truly understand and feel the meaning of all those words I read. I feel free. Free that my past is not determining my life anymore. Free that all possibilities are open to create anything I wish for. Free to be the expression I wish for. Free to be Me.
Understanding and feeling there is a Future Self, I can see how I have always felt and known this part of me. But not from the perspective of my Future Self, looking from the future to the Now. But always looking from the Now perspective into the future. This was confusing to me as I was able to see the final outcome. But the way to reach that place was often harsh and painful. I did not understand why to walk all the way if the outcome was already clear to me.
Knowing there is a Future Self is not enough. It is about stepping into a new perspective. And from there live a new Now.
By living my Future Self I have changed my perspective from ‘I want this’ and reaching out to get what I want into a perspective of ‘I have this already’ and opening up to receive what I wished for.
I am grateful for the gifts of 2013. It has been an amazing year of transformation and inner growth. A big step to become more whole and more Me. The energies were harsh sometimes. But it has been played. Knowing this, the pain is already forgotten. Like the overwhelming pain during my labour didn’t mean anything anymore the moment I held my baby. But feeling grateful this pain put me on top of my strength to deliver.
I send my thanks to each and every being who has been there with me in 2013. My gratitude goes deep, as we have reached the point where we no longer need to live from our past. But are the creators of our future.
I feel excited about 2014. We are relocating. We are planning a spiritual trip to America. I feel a new soul who is about to be conceived. I will create my own world. It feels magic.
I wish you a wonderful, magic and loving 2014!